My Trashcan ♥

shauni kaur is a sloth

2010-09-10T13:38:00.003+08:00

i'm bored :(

it's lunch time. i'm hungry :(

&&&

i'm feeling as lazy as ever to do anything, anything at all.

even to get up and eat.

okay, let's cut to the chase >:) the only reason why i'm posting this lame thing is some lazy ass sloth who's still in bed, refusing to get up and shower and eat, is making me do this :) but I sayang that sloth, so taa daaaaaa!! :DDDD

i have nothing to say :/ but look look! :D

i'm gonna end it before it gets lamer and nobody will ever wanna read this stupid dead blog eevr again D:

p/s ; i'm crzving for banana leaf lunch now, boo :(

pp/s ; i love the title of this post :)

hpy bday

2010-08-25T16:37:00.004+08:00

hello

my dearly dead-est blog

i haven't updated in AGES :( now i don't even know where to start. my apologies to my non-existent readers thoughh :3 anyway, here i go...... ._.

i had a greaaaat time in school today :P especially towards the end of the day, Audreymy love, you gotta stop asking questions over & over again when i don't answer you -.- it was fun tickling the crap outta her thoughh HAHA.

it's 4.20peeee-aaaam right now. and i'mbored shitless :( going out for dindin at Queens at 6pm later. FROZEN YOGHHURT! here i comeee baaabyyyyyy.

ohmygod, i almost forgot what this whole post is about. here it is ;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to

chingwen &

phaik swen &

xingying &

najah zahry

may all your wishes come true, sweethearts.

&&& may all the gummybears and candy rain on your parades

i love you all with allllll myyyyy heaaaaart! :3

ohh, one more thing, thank you Shauniiii K. for the tongue stud :P I sayang you muchmuchhhhhhhh! Xx :P

crazy me

2010-08-07T16:01:00.002+08:00

ohmygosh, can't believe this is actually happening to me. ME. i freaking miss you :) in a good way. it made me think how silly I was for throwing something that meant a million to me, not just the good relationship we shared but the friendship we've always had ♥ it was a blessing, it still is a blessing. you've always been the responsible, dependable guy i could trust, ahh everyone liked you so much and everyone tells me i was the luckiest girl to have been with you :) they were right. so, so right. if i could have things the way they used to be, trust me I would :)

...but life isn't always fair, is it?
it goes on & on :)

one last glace

2010-07-18T09:36:00.003+08:00

is it me? or has it been rainy days since you've been gone. didn't thought following your twitter was a bad idea until i realised i no longer have a say in the decisions you make. i swear, i didn't thought it would hurt this bad...

they tell me "don't cry, he's not worth your tears"
but what does it really matter...?

you've won. everything... you've won your life back, your friends, your freedom, and you've definitely won my heart, you always have. after all that's been done, why do i still feel this way about you...?

you've moved on. it's so obvious. i used to say "i wouldn't move on until i'm certain he's moved on with a new girl". but why isn't it happening?!

i thought you knew what love is when you said it to my face. i was wrong, wasn't i? it is all a big mistake. there's nothing to fix, nothing to say, nothing to tell.

i'll erase every memory i have of you. i just want to see you one last time...

p/s ; maybe this is all happenening because of the

things i haven't been able to give you

heartbreak

2010-07-07T01:10:00.003+08:00

You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know... ♥

push me off a cliff, please

2010-07-01T20:06:00.005+08:00

to-do list

7th July 2010
~~Society basic Layout~~
~~Sports Basic Layout~~
~~Individual Photo Page (re-do)~~

9th July 2010
Magazine Cover
~~Ed-board Page~~
~~Individual Page filled with photos & names~~
*not my job anymore :)

14th July
Lembaga Page
Badan Beruniform Page
Thalgo Advertisement Page

note to self I ; study everyday 2 hours
note to self II ; stop thinking/hoping too much for the sky to fall
note to self III ; be strong, have a heart of titanium, damn it

never again

2010-06-26T19:14:00.004+08:00

i'm so weak.
why can i just do it?
i was never this way.
this isn't me.

i'm falling apart,
and you're not here to catch me anymore.

why am I so incapable of making you happy?
making us happy...
i don't want to give up,
no matter how badly it hurts.
i'm just not ready to let go,
i doubt i will ever be.

p/s; every single day,
i hold my tears back,
hold it back to let it all out by the end of the day,
drowning in tears just to fall asleep.

imy imy imy

2010-06-25T22:01:00.002+08:00

"I miss those brown eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you"

imy ♥

invisible

2010-06-22T16:47:00.003+08:00

random blurts.

i feel stupid, so stupid. i feel invisible. and i feel stupid, again. oh gosh. i can't get over it. i just can't.
send him a million things on his wall and never, not one, nadaaaa, no reply.
and now the bestfriend is gone. wave goodbye atleast.

currently loving this ;

tell them all I know now
shout it from the roof top
write it on the sky line
all we had is gone now
tell them I was happy
and my heart is broken
all my scars are open
tell them what I hoped would be
impossible, impossible
impossible, impossible

...Impossible - Shontelle

convince me

2010-06-20T19:28:00.002+08:00

this is for you you you :)
dear David Yap,

you're the.... apple of my eye :3 and you're the purple colour in my skyyyy. you're the rainbow that comes up after the pouring rain. you're the best thing ever, hunny, i won't love you in vain.

i've been sucha bitch lately, PMSing? :( i'm sorry. but i still lovey dovey you very much and no, you're not a jerk, i take it back <3 after all that happened, things would be different, no doubt. but... things change, for the better maybe?

i'll do my part, can you do yours? i'll stop bugging you but you gotta stop coming home so late and clubbing so often and better still, study more :/
after SPM you can do whatever you want and i won't stop you, that's a pinky promise.

hope you see this soon :)
I love you with all my heart, cayanggg.

XxxxXXXXXX! :3

movie maniaaaa

2010-06-19T10:49:00.003+08:00

i've been like a maniac for movies lately D: of all the movies, i canNOT miss Toy Story 3 :) anyway, i've just watched Killers, starring Ashton Kutcher & Katherine Heigl, oretty awesome, it's cute lahh hehe. Ashton Kutcher is so....... yumm. :3

it's kinda worth watching :D
for Ashton's sake :b

but the highlight was definitely Karate Kid! Jaden Smith is aaaaaaah CUTE! he's like a love magnet :3 super cute omg omg. that kid is 11 freakin years old and look at the muscles in that boy D: and he's so talented, he can act, he can dance, and he can friggin sing ;_; i watched it twice :3 no regrets. Xx!

five stars from ME!

next movie ; toy story 3

somebody take me :)

urgh

2010-06-18T15:44:00.003+08:00

"why does it feel so bad to put up a straight voice and talk to you, to fake each smile in front of you... it feels like someone stabbed you right in the middle of your heart and twist the dagger a million times. i hate this feeling."

you'll just go on and think i'm crazy for saying that you changed.

after the day we both argued for the first time, it felt like... everything changed in a split second. the way we talk, the way we think, the way you look at me... and even the way that you loved me.

the more i think about it, the more difficult it is to breathe easy. it gets harder and harder to convince myself it's all okay, when it is clearly not okay. sometimes, i can't help it but to wonder what it would be like if we were nothing more than just friends.

it'll be much simpler than this. if we were just friends, maybe i wouldn't have to worry too much. or even care. then i wouldn't have to be a burden to you. i wouldn't have to be the reason you think twice when you want to do something. and the ugly truth is... maybe it'll hurt less. i'm so done being the one stopping you all the time. tying you to a hundred rules. you hate it, i know. when you say you love everything about me, i want to believe it. i do... but it's just so hard.

but... the one thing that would hurt the most
is leting you go.

i love you too much to imagine how it would be without you. to wake up ever morning and have nobody to think of, to tuck in bed at night and have nobody to wish sweet dreams & i love you, to not have somebody to hug and talk to when i'm knocked out. you're my best friend, you know? you mean everything to me. every little thing in this world would mean nothing without you.

and i hope you know that better than anyone else...

it's us against the world, hunn, hold it up strong.

holiday is bliss

2010-06-07T22:49:00.006+08:00

holidays
ho ho ho, like finally!

it's not the time to have too much of fun but i can't help but to think "oh, God, finally it's more sleep for me" D: not looking good for me, i know :( but oh well, life's unfair :) but ah, i'mma study like everyone else :b

fortunately, my holidays started on friday :D which was our trip to KL for the S.O.X. all stars march & cheer competition :) ohmygod, let me just tell you how much fun i had :D *stretches arm and hug the whole wide world* THAT MUCH! :D it was so so fun :) thanks Muha for sleeping beside me :3 and emanuelle, sarah wong, nicole cheah, carmen ngo, nicole linn john for staying up till the crack of dawn together on night one :) and also jet-lagging together the next morn :b

on the verge of falling asleep :b 3am

the event was great, although we didn't win. we didn't go all the way to KL just to win, but for the memories we'd make :D ahh, satisfied with everything :) cheered our heart out and some of em even lost their voices! *coughs* emanuelle & nicole cheah *coughs* :b had fun on the trip backkkk, camwhored with the little ones and chingy :3 sang our lungs out on the way home :)

after cheer ended :D nicole cheah :)

chingy &&& me and njl

love em all :D

nicole linn john ♥

auddy lost her wallet :( and her pillow too. curse whoever that took it, ruined her day so much :(

overall, it was an awesome trip :) we gotta do it all over again :DDD and next time, of course, without the missing things! :) i lovey dovey you all super duper muchies! *huggles*

fave picture :)

yellow's mine :D then clockwise Nicole Cheah, Muha, Sarah Wong, Audrey, Ching Wen, Carmen Ngo, Lee Ting & Farah Mesri :)

nom nom

2010-05-30T08:45:00.005+08:00

yesterday, was a good good day :b lil sister & i headed for Hunza, she met up with Xher Rael and i went with yang :D the entire plan was to head to church for ISCA but i didn't go cause *cough*daviddontwannago*cough* :DDDD keeding ahaha, anyway since it was 12pm, we had nothing to do and i refused to go up to his place, fear of first impressions, we hang around the apartment, talking o.o

later, Ben showed up :) then we all went to McD to eaaaat, i was starving D: had porridge :) nom nom! and 49848576245985 coke refills ._. Julian came along after that. sat there for a few hours then went back to yang's home :) after that, we headed for church :DDD didn't get to see Sarah :( but nvmm lahh, that monkeyy!

then yang & i went for supper with his mom & dad :) hmm, it was fun. went well? :D heeee.

picture perfects :)

yang & i

ben & julian?

movieeees

2010-05-30T08:21:00.004+08:00

ahh, ohmygod i've been having too much fun this week. too much! i gotta stop and i will :( no more going out too often & more books books books! D: anyway, it's been fun lately, very fun! sucks to say that i actually missed my last teachers' day in school, ever. but ah, what can i do? :( stupid braces ;_;

while i was in KL, frickin Reebok was on frickin sale! and i was frickin broke, how greaaaat is my life...... tell me! spent 10 hours in midvalley waiting for my sister & harpreet to come so we can go back to Penang D: it was tortuuureee. mum & i watched Shrek Forever After to waste time :))))

super cute movie, must watchhh! sorry i watched it w/out you yang :b ahh, anyway i deserved it! my teeth hurt like crazyyy :( boooohoooooo, dental appointments suckkkk.

back to Penang, did i mention how cold it was in the bus? i was shriveled up in a ball trying to fit my entire body in my sweater lol, so so cold T.T reached at about 5.30am :D then went back to beddddd :))) it was really home sweet home since i spent two nights in public transports :b train & buses ahaaa.

woke up at 10am-ish, then went for mr. boo's tuition for bio, chem & half of physics? lol left early! then hunn picked me up for Gurneeeey :D heck of a fun, honestly. headed to Gurney along with Ben, then we watched Prince of Persia!

hmm, not bad not bad :) not my kind, but i guess it was kinda good? :D newaaaay, after that movie yang & Ben sent me to Bayview Beach hotel :D to meet up with the team ♥ hang around the hotel, talking and laughing till 1am? :) then mom picked us up and sent us (including Sarah) homeee! reached about 2am ._. soooo tiringgg!

p/s ; i'm so broke......

fun fun fun!

2010-05-22T23:38:00.005+08:00

23.05.2010

YUP, exam is over, midterms are friggin over. and just so you know, my last ever highschool midterm exam is finally over. love to say i'd miss it but naaa :b today was awesome! was tiring thanks to the early wake up call for school (yes, school!) to attend some talent workshop thingiee.

hmm, let's see, got up at 8am, then packed my things like a madman since i was sorta late for the workshop D: it was raining! :D reached school, ran to the hall, bla bla blaaaa... audster drove me to the library :) to study my... undang? :( lol. heartbreaking. met up with David & Ben there then Julian showed up. yeah, they were making some heck of a noise in the library -.- but oh well... then yang's dad sent us all to Gurneyyyy :DDD original plan was to watch Shrek and head to church after Gurney but it didn't really happen. instead, we watched Bounty Hunter! :D anddd, we didn't go to church :( but Edvin joined us after in Gurney.

awesome movie; 5stars from me!

guess that's pretty much the entire day! i'm hungry and tired now and Muha is staying over :3 shall be fun fun fun! we're gonna watch Bring It On in 5 minutes :DDD ahh, finally get to get up late from sleep tomorrow! weeee!

p/s; ily, dywm ♥
pp/s; ben, you gotta stop stealing all my red gumdrops,
or imma smack you more!
ppp/s; i still wanna watch Shrek Forever Afterrr!

cute lah :)

2010-05-16T19:31:00.002+08:00

hungry scene

dɒvid - ɿoɔʞinǫ: yang
dɒvid - ɿoɔʞinǫ: i'm going off already. gonna have my lunch
ch♥ntri • tip to: mm?
dɒvid - ɿoɔʞinǫ: at...
ch♥ntri • tip to: oh... :(
ch♥ntri • tip to: mcD?!!
ch♥ntri • tip to: D:
dɒvid - ɿoɔʞinǫ: noo
ch♥ntri • tip to: phew... (:
ch♥ntri • tip to: cause if youre going to mcD im gonna bite youu. craaavinggg for mcD atm
dɒvid - ɿoɔʞinǫ: i'm craving for youuu :b
ch♥ntri • tip to: awwwwwwwwwww ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

dsh dsh scene

ch♥ntri • tip to: (:
ch♥ntri • tip to: do you think we'll ever fight? like really fight? /:
dɒvid - ɿoɔʞinǫ: like,throwing punches?
dɒvid - ɿoɔʞinǫ: ahaha :b
ch♥ntri • tip to: hahaha! nooo, like screaming on top of our lungs.

p/s : ohh, you make me smile :)

Happy Birthday, JJune!

2010-04-25T12:27:00.007+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday,

Koay Jin June!

had a surprise party for this girl right hereeee ;

jin june ♥

first thing i would like to say is it was havoc having Hui Poh around but it was a blast, she's sucha mafiaaa! :b anyway, the party wouldn't happen without all of our coorperation which includes Jin May, Hui Poh, Phaik Swen, Sarah, Anchaya, Tania, Rachel, OXY, Kau Kau, Muha &&& myself. it was chaotic when we tried keeping our mouths shut, trying to keep it a secret from June & when she actually found out that we were all hiding in May's room. But hmm, all

went well after a little bit of lies here and there :b We hope you had a blast, June, because we all put loads of effort in this :)

anyway, best wishes from me & the entire netball family + Jin May, Swen, Hui Poh :D
here are some pictures of the awesome memory we all made a success ♥

Happy Birthday to you

say cheese!

had cake & mcD ; nom nom!

her present who looks just like her! :)

indulging ;) jealous?

happy facessss! ♥

group shot ; me & jinmay & muha are m.i.a! :(

i'm behind the lenses :)

another, with jinmay in this time :D

present #2 ; scrapbook!

liking it? loving it? :b

birthday girl ♥

cutting the cake :)

yummy cake; thanks to jinmay :)

sunshine for my window :)

2010-04-19T20:51:00.003+08:00

i have been constantly killing myself with the editorial board workkk, and i need/deserve a break :(

so...

ice cream anybody? :D

i've been so, so tempted to gooo ouuut and chiaaaaaaaak :) awwh come onnn, somebody ask me out quick :( lol sounds so lonely :| whatever :b ahaaa, i just want ice cream! or yoghurt ice cream from j.co :D just greentea ice cream i've been craving for lately >:) evil tummy is talking, roarrr! this is no good, noooo goooood!

oh well, guess i'll just have to be patient :) i was browsing through deviantart for my edboard crap and came across this super cute little thingggg :D look look!

hmm, wonder who's it for :b

anyway, gotta chao now and get on with the dividers. hopefully i don't have to change muchh *crosses fingers* and i hope you read this michelle yeoh C: i love you :b

p/s; saturday saturday saturday!
pp/s; what about your old friends? don't you remember?

awesome

2010-04-16T21:11:00.004+08:00

victory!

yup, these few days, all the shits i've been getting myself involved in are turning out so darn good :D lets see, we got a gold medal for captain ball at youthwave ; least expected and we even got first place for drama, something we've worked our ass off :D i know i haven't been updating much thanks to the packed schedule but here are some pictures

to do the talking for me :)

10 seconds after finals :)
&&&
and... best part; the candids!

take 1;

take 2;

take 3;

take 4 :)

what can i say, we had alot of fun. and we love each others' company ♥
june ♥ muha ♥ sarah ♥ chantri ♥ jennifer
♥ xingying ♥ rachel ♥ anchaya ♥ chingwen

p/s; still waiting for the great noor lisa to upload our drama videos! :D
pp/s; another hurdle to fly over, drama district level :)

fallen apart

2010-04-07T06:55:00.000+08:00

why do i still feel my heart
sinking
everytime i think of you...? it hurts.

smile, again :)

2010-04-02T21:46:00.005+08:00

ahh, things have been horrible lately. but you know what really helps? keeping myself occupied. it works well for me, with so many things up ahead. youth wave, drama competition, and netball state's level :) all crammed in the next week :D despite the hectic schedule, i somehow feel that this is what i really need right now. practices, trainings and better yet, hanging out with my troop of fun people ^^ and the only people who can do that is ;

them ;

&&&

jocel lim zhi xian :)

tomorrow shall be a good day :)
training & gathering, here i come! :b

you're far from believing it

2010-04-02T07:29:00.004+08:00

You look into my eyes, put me out of my misery,
I have never told lies, I hope that you come back to me,
I want to spend my time of loving you forever...
No matter what happens, we must stick together,
Come on, trust in my words, give me your heart back again,
Kiss my lips, touch my hand, give us a second chance...
My heart is pumpin', have a feeling that I've never felt,
If I'm allowed to be with you, the luck is comin' to my world,
So far as I remember, you were perfectly happy,
to find someone like me, in a world full of traffic,
I fulfill your dreams, its not only taffy...
You're the only one for me.

We walk through a world where nobody has been before,
turn back the hands of time open every door...
I swear I will allay your doubts 'n sure I love u more
to retrieve your affinity.

you're doing great w/out me,
aren't you..?
i'll finally give you what you've always wanted. to be apart, and to be left alone.
i hope you're happy.

*sighh

2010-03-31T20:40:00.004+08:00

i've been missing you. been chucking my face into piles of books to keep you outta my mind. ahh, it works, sometimes. but... clearly, not now. i'm doing my addmaths homework and i'm stuckk. very, very stuckk. you know, i've been wanting to tell you so many things, but i never seem to have the guts. ughh, i'm sucha wuss. you get me weak in the knees...

when you told me we weren't a good match, i disagreed. we're the total opposite and i know that well... you're somebody and i'm nobody. i'm not in the 'it crowd' and i'm not living a live in the fast lane. i'm not pretty like your other girlfriends and yeah, i'm not cut out for youu. i don't go clubbing and i don't drinkk. i'm not cool, i understand... but... does it really matter? all i know is that i really, really like you. and you make me smile all the time even when i'm drenched in tears. you still make me nervous and you make me fidget when we're close. you make me do reckless things and make stupid decisions.

i should have said all these things when i had the chance to... i should have. and i regret. but, it's worth a second chance. cause i'll wait for you. even if it takes us 394849740563 years. that's not humanly possible but... i will. as corny as this may sound, for you i will.

:) pinky promise i'll work my best!

tell me it isn't so, please...

2010-03-28T21:40:00.001+08:00

the flashbacks are
killing me

don't go...

2010-03-27T21:42:00.003+08:00

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.

Me and my stupid pride
I'm sittin' here, alone.
I'm going through the photographs,
Staring at the phone.
I keep going back over
Things we both said
And I remember the slammin' door,
And all the things that I misread.
So baby if you know everything
Tell me why you couldn't see
That when I left I wanted you to chase after me?

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.

And I scream out the window,
"I can't even look at you, I don't need you,"
But I do, I do, I do.
I say, "There's nothing you can say
To make this right again, I mean it,
I mean it"...

What I mean is...

I said, "Leave," but baby all I want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.

not hard enoughh

2010-03-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

i want to be in :(
badly...
but who am i to saaay. i suck.

p/s ; nonoNO!! you're doing it the
wrong way, Chantri!! urghhhh.

randommm ♥

2010-03-19T21:33:00.003+08:00

i'm so bored right now, i could eat myself. i have a slight fever, and everyone thinks i'm dying. i went for chemistry tuition this evening, and i want to jump off a cliff. what else?! i'm excited, about tomorrow :) with xiannnn hehe ;p

anyway, today's been... boring. i had a horrible nightmare and i was honestly scared shitless. *sighh... but that shouldn't bother me; at all! because he says "i love you" and i believe him :) i'm bored, again. it's FRIDAY! freedommm. ngee. i still have to read up a little before bedtime!

hmm, guess what?! i watched alice in wonderlaaand, finally ^^ nope, not with him but with my girls! heee. with xingying, phaikswen, muha and anchaya :D awesomeeee flick, you can't miss it! no pictures of that day thoughh :( anyway, here are some cute ones!

warning ; the following materials might spoil viewers eyes ;p NYAMM!

♥ lovey dovey himmm

till here ; byeeee! rawr! hypedddd.

feels good good ;p

2010-03-17T12:02:00.001+08:00

it's gonna be a good day todaaay :) the boyfriend had english test and hopefully he does great ;p i know he will~ gurney later in the evening and addmaths with Muha in and hourrr! how great can today get? can't wait for dinner time at gurney drive lateeer! ♥

p/s ; awwh, i'm getting used to thisss!
pp/s ; fun fun fun!

why?

2010-03-15T20:40:00.001+08:00

so much for being in such a good mood
*sighh...

stupid girl

2010-03-14T09:32:00.005+08:00

i hate it when she does that. seriously, why can't you just back off..? i've been so quiet and nice to you. you said you don't wanna hurt anybody but you don't give a fug about what i feel, right? maybe it's not your fault. maybe it's his. or maybe it's just me.

me.

i've never been so... agitated. ever.
all i'm asking for is... just... i don't even know what i want anymore!

bring me!

2010-03-13T11:41:00.003+08:00

alice in wonderland

wanna watch, anyone? i'm obviously dying to watch it! johny depp never looked better ;p anyway, i wannaaaaa waaaatch! somebody take! xian, wihandro, vill, amber, audrey, muhanniz *hint hint* :D watch with meeeeeee.

p/s : holidays. hooray?

have you ever

2010-03-13T11:20:00.003+08:00

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever..?

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever...

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

...Have you ever?

2010-03-12T22:20:00.001+08:00

aneelliV ♥ ™ says:
*i don't know how deep, and i need you to stop crying and feeling sad, okay sayang?
*this.. is not your battle to fight
*he's yours.
*YOU'VE WON.
*and babe, you've got nothing to worry about

thanks, vill. cause you're right. you're so right.

take the chance

2010-03-07T10:40:00.004+08:00

i'm sorry for what i did yesterday, for ignoring you & making you feel like an idiot for doing so. i didn't want to, baby, but i didn't have a choice. i hurt me as well. i didn't want to do it. i wanted to turn around and hug you, kiss you. but if i did it, i know i'd miss the chance to fix things between us and that would be the biggest mistake of our lives. would you forgive me?

after what we talked about, things would be much better, right? remember what you promised me and i'll remember what i promised you. i promise to stay close, to hang on tight and never let go. we can't let this slip off our fingers just like that, okay? i love you, and i know you love me too.

it's all about ;
compromise

& it's all about ;
you & me

suppressed by all my childish fears ♥

2010-03-03T19:48:00.003+08:00

"i'll be quiet... so give me the candy already!"

if i be quiet enough, would you give me what i want? :) would you know what i want?... would you ask? if tantrum wouldn't work, i'll be your good girl.

"I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase"

boredom

2010-02-17T00:28:00.003+08:00

it's late at night and i'm feeling bored. mad bored. seriously. anyway, something just came across my mind :/

...and it's that donkey ass pervert ; yaoji :)

he's gonna be leaving malaysia soon, off to taiwan, boohoo. we haven't gotten the time to hang around much but he's been one of the coolest fellow i've known. he teman-ed me and bought me silver marker pen when golfmike came around in gurney.

i'm surely gonna miss you, buddy :D from the bottom of my heart :) don't forget to come back for visits! or i'll kick your ass, ruffff :)
hmm, if his name sunds familiar, here's a picture to recall! :D

yaoji ♥

2010-02-14T10:16:00.006+08:00

happy

valentine's

day,

everyone ♥

&&&

happy

chinese new year

everyone :)

p/s : happy birthday, andrea astasari

joey yin chuin yit ♥

2010-02-07T15:56:00.007+08:00

Kaaaapishhh~ look who's back :3 the blogger *grins*. I know I've been horrible lately. It's been months since I last updated my blog. Yup, it's dead. Goodbye readers! >:( But uhm, well I'm trying to revive it back :D check out my effort *wiggles eyebrows* :3

I'm obviously bored :) I just finished my English essay :D and I am proud of it muahaha. I think it's one of my super rajin kinda essays de lorr. I have Biology notes to be done and BM Pemahaman to finish but I'm too lazy. GRRR. Sucha lazy bone. Joey's in Gurney now with Zoe. They're gonna catch Spy Next Door! :( Aaaah, and I'm stuck at home, wasting my life blogging away >:(

Anyway, no pretty pictures to show but I'll just toss in some random cute ones :D

Did I mention I went to KL for my braces appointment lately with my boy :3 It was fun, and with mum too of course. Came back home with 2 big fat boxes of Krispy Kreme :D woopieee! Which also means 2 extra KGs :( lol. Oh well, life's gooooood~

GAH, anyway, here are some pictures :)

♥ ♥ ♥

sory for spoiling your eyes with the lovey dovey stuff o.o

but anyway, be glad, that's the end of it hehe :3

gotta scram now >: byeeee

*waves*

yeah, you get me

2009-12-29T13:29:00.000+08:00

"You Get Me"

So I'm a little left of center
I'm a little out of tune
Some say I'm paranormal
So I just bend their spoon
Who wants to be ordinary
In a crazy, mixed-up world
I don't care what they're sayin'
As long as I'm your girl

Hey, you are on my side
And they, they just roll their eyes

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
Yeah, you get me

So what if I see the sunshine
In the pouring rain
Some people think I'm crazy
But you say it's okay
You've seen my secret garden
Where all of my flowers grow
In my imagination
Anything goes

I, I am all you want
They, they just read me wrong

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and hold my hand, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
Still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
'Cause you get me

Hey, you are on my side
They, they just roll their eyes
Yeah, yeah, yeah

'Cause you get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
When none of the pieces fit
You make sense of it
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
And still I want you all the time
Yeah, I do
'Cause you get me
Yeah, oh, yeah, oh

hangouts when Sum's around

2009-12-28T14:06:00.005+08:00

i had fun with you, sumtianyan
♥

steven's 17th birthday

2009-12-28T13:27:00.009+08:00

I know it's pretty lame for me to say this now buuuuut
happy birthday, selven razz

after cake & food ; chitty chats :3

zeeeee super jelak but yummy cake :D

the person who chose the cake -.-

selven & his girl, dhivia :)
*psst, i spelled it right this time yo!*

wihandro & vill

summy & meeee

yours truly :3

wihandro ; play with fireeeee! D:

L to R ; Selven, Dhivia, Ah Hau, Chin Chin

wihandro took it :)

L to R ; Summy, Selven, Dhivia, Ah Hau, Chin Chin, Sueveena

Widodo :3

Well, ended up going home by bus with them allll :) and headed to Pesta with Summy to join Vinod & Shahnas & all.
Great night but without the puking would be much better *sighhh*

was a good day i guess :)

for you.

2009-12-27T11:43:00.000+08:00

It feels funny today. Have I not realized that you’re gone…? You’ve left me, for good. You left me, without turning back, not once. Ten days of being apart, this is what I get. I remembered the time I said and asked “Hey, I miss you so much. Are you still awake? You haven’t been returning my calls lately. I’m worried, you know? And I feel miserable not talking to you like this… I’m starting to wonder if you still feel the same way too. Do you?”. No reply, of course. I really needed you that night. I needed you so badly.

You told me you love me, and that you’ll never leave me alone unless I do the stupidest thing that you can’t forgive, which was… nothing you could think of at that moment. The moment where we were so mesmerized, so in love. It wasn’t supposed to fade away like this. I held on so tight, because it has always felt like a roller coaster that never ends. But yet, the safety belts didn’t work and our joy ride crashed. But… how is it that I’m the only one who didn’t made it out that day, alive and happy?

All my friends say “Hey, you have to let this go…”. How? I don’t wanna let it go. I don’t wanna stop missing you. I don’t want you to forget who I am. And every little thing we had together. You’re always on my mind, and I doubt that it’s gonna go away any time soon. Yeah, it hurts to miss you but… I can’t help myself.

You know what I miss? I miss how you sound like every time I wake you up in the morning. I miss how you smell when you give me the warmest hugs. I miss how you lock your fingers into mine when we’re at the theatre. I miss how you think I’m a lousy student. I miss how you play with my hair when I lean on your shoulders in the library. I miss how you try to teach me Chemistry when I don’t understand a single thing. I miss how you stand one step lower when we’re on the escalators so you’d look shorter for me. I miss how we burn time by walking up and down the malls, waiting for our friends to arrive. I miss how you used to call me your wife and you were my Superman. I miss the late night phone calls & all the good night, sweet dreams and sleep tight wishes you give me every single night before we both go to bed. I miss the little countdown we do before we hang up the phone. And most of all, I miss the way you say… “I love you, super duper much”.

You meant the world to me, you really did. Now I regret every single time I said “Can’t…” when you say “Are you home? Can I walk to your place now?”. Who am I to tell you to love me again, right? But… do I mean anything to you? Have I been feeling all of that crap on my own all these while…? All my tears and joys, what do they make you feel?

I really want it to work. I want you back… I really do. I really really miss you. And I want you by my side. I’m scared of what to do next, because I need you. I promise, I’ll be more independent this time. I’ll work my way to the top, I will. I just… need your love and support. Give me a call, and tell me what I wanna hear. Tell me you still love me.

Please?

literally dead :(

2009-12-05T08:49:00.008+08:00

work

i'm sorry for no new updates in my blog lately but i promise to revive it after work ends! gahh, 10 to 10 is really gtting to my eyebags but oh well :(

stay tuneddd!

signing off with ;

♥

hospital trips :D

2009-11-23T10:11:00.006+08:00

wooooosh~ hello :) ohmygosh, boredom finally ends today! my little brother & sister's back from the hospital! if you're wondering why they were there, they were there for dengue, ahhahh. oh well, they're back now! and yes, i've been a good sister, visiting them everyday with mum :D

ahhah, ironic as this may be, i got pictures :P my brother seemed fine -.- he was as hyper as ever! :P but my sister was like nervous about some injection though o.O
oh well, here they are :D

oh his bed ; with needles in his hand ._.

ouchhhh

he can't cross his eyes! :P

camwhoring :D

and my lil sister in that ugly ass hospital thingie :D

*pats*

photos :)

2009-11-22T16:29:00.015+08:00

hey guys. i know i promised the pictures of my KL trip a long time ago :D and i've finally loaded them all :) videos are all up in my ♥ Youtube. Be sure to watch it because the AAR videos are friggin awesome :D

anyways, here are the pictures of the entire trip to do the talking for me :)
caption awaaaaaay! wooosh~

on the way :D had navy nails ; how awesome :)

when we reached :D weeee, picked Thana up from her hostel

and headed for some good lunch, chicken rice.

yummy!

*fast forward*

at the life changing concert ;D

it was the best thing in the world ; i swear!

the All American Rejects rocked hard.

that's eugene :)

met eugene & madhav there

awesome people

day after the concert ; in the train

shopping day with p'maii :)

went to Times Square, Sungei Wang & KLCC

after shopping day ; dental appointment

had breakfast after my braces crap

at seremban parade

this is one very hungry cat >:(

meowing his way for my food. aishh!

headed to JJ to waste more time after breakfast :D

on the way home

&&& p'maii's little patrick :D

that's how the entire trip went. it was a great trip, honestly. the concert was definitely the highlight, man :D woooosh~ that's all for now. more photos coming up! :D

please

2009-11-19T20:37:00.001+08:00

i don't wanna lose

you

ending it, finally?

2009-11-19T09:34:00.003+08:00

congratulations :)

to you know what... finally, you made up your mind. now, we can forget all about whatever happened. especially on 311009, hmm? i don't really have to worry about not going to camp and all anymore. cause i'll have all the time in the world this holidays.

"there's so many things to do with you, but so little time..."

rephrase that, would you? we don't have to do anything anymore. even our christmas plan, which i've been dying of excitement just thinking about it. but who cares. hahahh. it's not right, if you come all the way here to spend it with me and not stay where you are and spend it wit her. it's stupid.

just so you know, i'm not mad. at all. it's the right thing to do anyway :) we'll always be friends. just friends. good luck! with everything coming up! ♥

~~i.love.you~~

no,

it's just the way you make me feel

random hangouts

2009-11-15T15:10:00.004+08:00

hello, y'all :D i haven't been blogging lately. no inspiration, at all. *sighs* buuuut, look who's back in action! muahaha *grins*

anyway, my sister came home yesterday morning! and eugene came back on friday night :) ahaa. later than expected? oh well. we were gonna go out the next MORNING actually but the plan went all different after eugene overslept ; which i totally saw it coming :P

original plan was him picking my sister and i up from home at 10am anddd catch an early movie at 12.25pm. ahaa! but that sleepyhead got up at 12pm -.- can't blame him though. he was talking to some ~~friend~~ till 4 in the morning. tsk tsk *snorts* ;)

hmm, since we missed Time Traveller's Wife, we all watched This Is It by MJ and it was good. very good. awesome show, seriously. everyone must watch it :D heee. i was supposed to meet up with muhanniz and friends for 2012 that i've been dying to watch. tried calling her after my movie but she never picked up. *grumbles* i wanted to stay and wait for muhanniz but eugene had to rush home and and and he made me go home too. but thank God i left. or i'll rot in Queensbay waiting for nothing because they watched the damn movie without me. *huff* very sad noe... anyway, thanks eugene for saving my ass :P

he drove us back around 3.45pm like some mad thing -.- i have a weak heart! ahahah! dowanna die in his car ;P anyway, the ride was fun. heeee. :D reached home and guess what eugene got meeeeeeee? and my sister :P

taadaaa :3

pocky!

yummy yummy, thankss~ love em. you're the best! *hugs* :) ahh, that's how everything ended though. so, the time traveller's wife and the visiting sarah thing was cancelled but still, had an awesome time :D *dances around* weeee~

okay that's all for now.

signing off with

♥

2009-11-12T20:17:00.000+08:00

fudge

back to square one, please.

omfg

2009-11-08T23:31:00.004+08:00

LOOK WHAT I FOUND! i was googling golf mike's picture and i found photos of their promo tour in malaysia ; penang earlier this year! and and and and, that's not the best part! the best part is, i'm in the photo with themmmmm~

here it is ;

it's me in the cap. damn, i look fugly but wdf who cares :D

http://music.sanook.com/story_picture/show/music/16988/2-12/11

yawww

2009-11-08T20:12:00.004+08:00

helloooo. i just came home. and i am bloated like mad. MAD. ahhh. what a tiring day, honestly. i didn't even get enough sleep the night before. and i'm out of credit :S eugene, i hope you're reading this~ heee. had an awesome day at masyarakat penyayang doing some charity duty at a cancer awareness food fair :D

everything was like tiring and boring and stuff. isaac came half way thru though. helped meee :3 how sweet. ahaaa. helped me clean all those crap -.- boooooo. i don't really have pictures of the event but got one picture with aiwen :) here it is ;

after that food fair thing, we got alotta free food since didn't finish selling :) then isaac & i & my family headed to queens for shopping and dinner :) ahaaa. we went to buy my lil brother's neck tie & went to the arcade for a short while. then headed to chopper board for dinner :D yum yum, had the usuals ; black pepper chicken rice & iced chocolate! isaac had the same thing.

ahh, it was tiring but fun anyway :) wheee!
and OHHH, elmo's google is finally up! here here ;

weeeeeeeeee! cuteeeenessss~

will stop just here! :D

p/s : thanks eugene, for lullabying me? ;D

sesame streets :D

2009-11-07T17:20:00.004+08:00

happy 40th birthday,

sesame streets

♡

ahaa. google has been awesome lately with all the sesame streets doodle :D seriously :) it was cookie monster, then bert & ernie and now oscar the grouch? i'm still waiting for elmo's though! love it the most :D red, red elmo :) i posted up cookie monster's doodle up recently. i didn't get bert & ernie's though. but here is oscar's!

cute, no? :)

anyway, i think oscar's adorable. especially when they featured him in Night In The Museum II ;) so, so cute! ahaaa. can't get enough of cranky lil' oscar, seriously :) wheee! here's another adorable picture! :D

ahh, i think imma just end here :)

and say hello to oscar! :D

p/s : i'm such crap, can't believe i forgot about my duty tomorrow. thanks for saving my ass, aiwen

pp/s : sorry dawn lynn. another time yeah? *hugs*

tralala~

2009-11-06T20:25:00.003+08:00

today's such a boring day. thank God i had those two love birds wimme. Ahaaa! Shuwirda and Daniel. It was fun chatting with them! So lovey dovey all... *ahem ahem* Cute lahh :D

dedication to ; shuwirda

I met a new friend of mine.
She's siamese too.
Her name is Chantri.
You
can click on to go straight to her blog.
&& co-incidence, she is
Daniel's friend's girlfriend !
HAHAHAH, nice to meet you ;)

that was in her bloggie. so sweet, no? :) anyway, we're all planning to meet up for some nice dinner soon! wheee! swensens, please :D can't wait to meet her. awwh :) *huggles*

i don't have much to say besides i had a horrible dinner -.- boooooo.
gahh, imma just stop here. signing out with alot of ♡! :) xoxoXx!

2009-11-06T00:27:00.001+08:00

2 months

and still counting

♥

excrutiating lust for movies

2009-11-05T12:16:00.000+08:00

i need a movie marathon. NEED. this is unacceptable! i've missed so many awesome flicks! too many. :( all those movies, all of em~ right now, while i still can, i HAVE to watch em all. but when? ahh! my plans better work out or i might dieee~

must watch ;

Jennifer's Body

Time Traveller's Wife

This Is It - MJ

2012

Phobia 2

Pandorum

Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs

ahh, looking at all these posters frustrates me, like crap. :(

another day at mcd

2009-11-05T09:43:00.000+08:00

hellooo alll...~ :D i skipped school again today. i'm so so so so sorry muha. seriously. i'll make it up to you soon :( anyway, we had training yesterday at 4PM. went to mcd with them ; muha, audrey, amber, vill, chingwen, jeslyn, isaac. so much funnn. heeee. i haven't seen my sayang in like a million years :( sort of... heee. but it was so fun. we all sat in a huge table. but in the end they wanted to sit at the couch. grr. and left us. boohoo! you guys suck. LOL.

anywayy, i've nothing much to write at the moment.
but here's something ;

i think this is the best one of the year! ahaa! it's so cuuteeee! cookie monster is love :D i wonder what it'll look like during xmas :) the halloween one isn't that interesting :/

anddd ;

photo of the day
haaa! adorable much :) pouts! lol *cuddles* love this boy. much much!
i see daniel at the back! :P

p/s : i want my phone back... :( eugene! lol!

KL trip & gummy bears horror

2009-11-03T17:43:00.000+08:00

i just got gummy bears from famous amos and now i can't enjoy em' like i should. :( why? because i just tightened my braces. boohoo. hurts really badly... grr. can't wait to take em off! ahh! anyway, that's not the point. no pain, no gain, right? :) hmm.

i came back from KL yesterday evening. the concert was amazing. made me forget the entire universe and have fun. wheeee! it was awesome, was worth every second, all the pushing & squeezing and dehydrating D: ahaaa. best time ever! videos are coming up soooon! they're being delayed thanks to my ever-genius sister who wanted to use the camera without a charger :/ can't wait to show it to you guys though! wheeee! *squeals* :D

met a few people there. sadly i didn't get to bump into LJ or anything. nice meeting you, eugene & madhav :D

p/s : just trying to revive my blog after a few days not blogging :)

xoxoOo!

vacation mode :)

2009-10-30T10:08:00.000+08:00

hello. i just changed my blog layout, again. heeeee. is it pretty? tell me! if it isn't, i'mma change it back! i know the navigations are kinda hectic though. anyway, i'm leaving for KL later. with my dad, only. *rolls eyes* lol. gahhh, it's gonna be boring. better yet, i'm gonna get nagged for 5 hours flat. i feel like dying atm. lol.

anywaaaay, i'm gonna miss my hunnnn! but atleast i'll be getting a phone while i'm there ;) it'll be fun. what's gonna be better is the concert! ahhaha! can't wait. gotta meet up with ryan to get my ticket :) ahhah, gonna be a blast. but it's sad that isaac can't come along though. and shaun. *pouts*

ahh, atleast i've found something nice to wear to the concert. anddd, since i snapped my MCKY bag and i gave my white bag to my sister, i don't have any bag to bring. BUT i found my old old bag in the store room :) and it fits the outfit. i think -.- i'm trying to be optimistic. lol. oh, and i painted my nails navy blueee! :D

woop woop :D

2009-10-26T14:40:00.000+08:00

hello all. gah, it's just a typical weekday after school. :) it's boringgg. just got off the phone with him :D phone call was fun, as always. ahhh, mum didn't buy me any lunch so i had to make some instant noodles.

...but not just any instant noodles. *wiggles eyebrows* ahahahah! leeting -.- LOL. okay, completely ~~sidetracked~~. anyway, as i was saying, it wasn't normal magee mee. lol. dad went to thailand for some prayers. came home with some noodles from thailand. my favourite brand :) normally he buys tomyam flavour but this time he go a different flavour. there's a picca of it :D

ahhah, looks yummy, no? it smelt like duck flavour noodles. but after a moment, i was reading the packet and i realised that it was pork flavour :O ahhah! i've never seen pork flavoured noodles before! and oh boyyy, it was yummmmy :D fyi : i'm pro at making instant noodles. very nice one :)

anyway, besides those instant noodles, dad also bought Pocky :D but it's different, again. lol. in Japan they only sell normal flavoured Pocky. classics... like milk, strawberry & chocolate. but the Pocky in Thailand was cool. it was Belgian tastes or something like that. couldn't be bothered. i was too busy picking the best out of the 4 boxes my dad bought. ahhah! :P

taaadaaaa...! and yes, the star ;) mineee! :D the one with almond bits. heee. the rest were like 20 baht. except mine. mine was 25 baht! *wink* i'm still saving it o.o i don't know what's wrong with me! aahahha! oh well :)

oh yeah, and he also bought this weird crab snack. it's good :)

kaaay~ that's all i guess. i'm bored and i don't have anything else to say :) oh oh! waitttt. i got a letter! :D from a special someone. aww, thanks kayy? i loved it. gonna keep it, foreveeer. :3 and ever and ever and eveeer! ily :)

p/s ;

can't wait to head to KL for the concert, gonna be fun as hell!

pp/s ;

anybody knows where i can get a devil horns headband? :D

don't ask why -.-

2009-10-22T11:58:00.001+08:00

I've skipped school, again. :( oh no, why?! ishh. i'm so friggin lazy :( gahh, we're supposed to have our BM oral test today. and i forgot my damn title. >.> who cares. hmph. i'll just do it another day. tomorrow? wait, do we have BM tomorrow? o.O heeee*

oh well, the whole band thing is working out really well... our first meeting was so, so fun. :D it was with amber & audrey & muha & vinod & me! ahhah, we haven't really figured out a name for the band though. :)

vinodtha; you're awesome

amber keeps hailing her. LOL. she made everyone do it though ;D it was much much fun. gahh, thinking of what cover to do next. any suggestions?
i like catch me - demi lovato :) she's so awesome. :3

looking forward to tomorrow. tuition! and sayang has exams. :/ hmm...
oh, if you're wondering, YES, i will go to school. :)

//for hunn;

all the best for exams! you're gonna do great. looking forward to after your exams :D loads. *hugs* weeeee!

late night PMS

2009-10-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

grrr, grrr, grrrrrr.

PMS is hell, i'm telling you. seriously. i was yelling and screaming at everyone in the house. i should control... *breathe in, breathe out* ohh. i'm leaving for kelantan tomorrow so byee mr.awesome blog. if you're wondering, yes, my blog is a male. AHAHA.

anyway, i've decided that isaac's like this little pill you take when the entire world is against you. :) hmm, lovey dovey you, hunn! *cuddles*

oh, did i mention? i grew like a huge FAT pimple on my face :'( it hurts! boohoo... stupid PMS. :( *stabs*

he's probably sleeping. i need his hug so badly. :/ double boohoo!

anyway, this is to shazrin. screw you :P i know deep deeeeep in your heart you miss my presence! *wink* and you miss hanging out wimme. and you really thought i was fun and YOU STILL THINK I AM! muahaha. you corny person. ass!

okay, imma go now. :) it's getting late and i needa sleeep! byee all :)

ughh, piss off.

2009-10-15T15:10:00.000+08:00

if you know who you are;

you were a friend. yeah, you were my friend at some point. only when you needed my help. what's wrong with you? i never expected you to be like this. yeah, you helped me, i helped you in return. but when you don't need my help, you abandon our friendship? gee. how inconsiderate can you get?

no, i do not want to be friends anymore.
no, i do not want to talk to you anymore.

and no, i'm not being childish. yes, i was offended tbh.
so, you don't have to bother anymore.

for my boo :)

2009-10-13T16:50:00.001+08:00

for ; isaac lee wei ming

the one i promised :)

ily

p/s : i miss youuuu :(

finally :)

2009-10-13T16:27:00.000+08:00

WHEEE!

~~hell~~ yeah, it is the E N D

boy, it feels so good.

to all form4s @ CGL

headed to mcD after school with Muha, Mel, Florence, Wardah & classmates! it was fun, but Ber & Aud weren't there though :( oh well, Ber was supposed to come but she ditched us! boohoo! it's okay...

the question now is...

school tomorrow or sleep tomorrow?

ngekk, i'll just ask yang later, i'm so fickle-minded.

yeah, yeah, i'm happy about the whole freedom thing. and i really don't wanna burst my own bubble buuut.... i won't get to hang around with him much cause his exams aren't over yet! not any sooner either... *pouts*

boohoo even more! and if i follow him to the library, i'll just distract him with my boredom :/ aishh. how now? :(

anddd, i'll be away for 3 days suring Deepavali :( aud&muha&ber, you guys don't watch Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs without me ahh! okay okay? :)

oh well, nothing much to say besides i neeeeed to sleep or i might die soon! ;)

best picture taken on sunday ; 11.10.09

p/s : hunn, send me the pictures in your cameraaa :D

2009-10-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

must read

okay, so this is what happened;
i was clicking over to my imeem for some music. then i realised that i've got an unread mail :D oh, happy me...... then i read, the title was "have been a long time!!!". yeah, i thought it was my long lost friend from alaska or something -.- so i opened it :)

this is what it was ;

Q : did i reply?
A : hell yeah. i replied "you're so stupid :)"

Q : "our last talk" true?
A : nooooo! eww.

ohmygosh, people like that are so crazy. not only crazy, they're like uber desperate. so stupid and jobless. i'm a girl for god sakes. -.- they're the reason why kids in the age of 10 watches blue films. ishhh. stupid mindless people. ughh.

anyway, i better go :) byeeeeeeeeee!

yesterdaaaay~

2009-10-10T12:21:00.000+08:00

hello allll :D yes, i know i should be studying but i can't! it still feels like 9am when it's already 12.30pm :/ oh well...

went for tuition last night :D yup yup, kinda fun... i guess :/ sat with taaaraaa cause mr. boo shoo-ed us to the back! lol. hmphhh. we have got identical pens ;D wheeeee!

anyway, right before tuition i recieved my package ;) uh-huh, all my lenses are here. now i don't need speccies :D which is awesome. cause i keep losing them! grr!

gonna end here. hunn's out! haven't talked to him much yet. eeek. gonna see him tomorrow at the library :) can't waiiit!

taadaaa! :)

tgif ; for real!

2009-10-09T13:11:00.000+08:00

countdown ; 5 down, 2 to go

hello all :D it's friday, hell yeah! which means all the science papers are done with! now all we're left with is bm(1), eng(1) and addmaths! holy crap to the addmaths. lol. oh well, imma enjoy the day while it lasts cause after tonight, i'm gonna have to work my ~~ass~~ for that last blardy paper :/

i got new contact lenses :) wheeee! which means i don't have to wear specs anymore. it's annoying :( planning to go to the library again on sunday. this time muhanniz is coming alonggg! :D with sayang too. and his friends. o.o

gah, gonna stop here. need more photos to update, i know!

p/s ; AARs concert's on the 31st :) can't wait!

A weaker man might have walked away, but you had faith

Strong enough to move over and understand, while I got it together.

While I figured it out, they say, "If you love something let it go.

If it comes back it's yours, and that's how you know.

It's for keeps, yeah, it's for sure."

And you're ready and willing to give me more than...

What a girl wants, what a girl needs,

Whatever makes me happy and sets you free.

And I'm thanking you for knowing exactly...

What a girl wants, what a girl needs,

Whatever keeps me in your arms.

And I'm thanking you for being there for me.

woooosh!~

2009-10-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

yaaaaaaaay!

*run around and screams* it's thursday! which means i only have physics tomorrow! :D omg, what a relief! ahhh... yes, i can feel the tension easing. is anybody gonna ask how was bio? :) it was goooood! well, better than i expected. there was only 2 question on mitosis and meiosis >:) muahaha! andddd yes, i got what i wished for ; for chapter 7 appear in the essay questions! hehhh.

anyway, i'm not allowed to come online. :O
gotta run nowww! :D

p/s ; 4 down, 3 to go!

it's wednesday :D

2009-10-07T15:51:00.000+08:00

nyah! wednesday already, wooopieeee!

countdown ; 3 down, 4 to go

oh yeahhh! :D hmm, anyway, talked to hunn on the phone last night and he finally sent me the pictures. i realised i look so scary in those photos but i really liked one :3

anyway, i have bio & maths tomorrow D: yes, i am scared. imma go study later on. GRRR. ~~hate bio, hate bio, hate bio!~~

taadaaa :D

oh well, gonna go now. iTunes is giving me a big fat headache!

oh, ily super duper much hunny :)

2009-10-06T14:09:00.001+08:00

exams are driving me nuts. but still, i can't help but to say ;

happy 1st month anniversary, sayang. :)

yes, i love you super duper much :3

p/s : hugs & many many kisses!

2009-10-06T14:07:00.000+08:00

i'm practically in living hell ;

2 down, 5 to go

p/s : exam mode still OFF?!

bunch of nonsense.

2009-10-03T17:51:00.000+08:00

today's shit. seriously shit. thank God mum's back. i was gonna die if i were to live another day with that dumbass. i don't even wanna talk about it. i miss him & i wanna talk to him...

audrey called. hmm, i wonder why. i wanna call her back but i can't remember her number! oh well, i'll just ask muhanniz later. so, everybody's working their asses off on books right now. blogs are the devil, i tell you.

gah, dee's all the way in US now. best wishes to that girl. miss her already!

i studied sejarah just now, but i ~~stopped~~. cause i just can't concentrate. WHY?! i'll probably stay up late tomorrow to work on my nalai-nilai for moral. grrr. i'm so sick of it. goshhh.

i'll just stop here. dying of boredom... should i call him? i'll just call for aud's number. BYE!

one of our days ♥

2009-10-03T01:08:00.000+08:00

it's friday today, and yes, it is joevin's birthday :D but scratch that, i've written an entire entry just for that part. ANYWAY, i had mr.boo's today. had no transport so i had to stay back for like 3 ~~frickin~~ hours till tuition. booooo.

buuut, it didn't suck. at all...! cause hunn was wimme. *smiles*

well, we met up at mcD and i didn't want to make that life threatening journey all by myself s i ~~dragged~~ vill along :D yes, vill. lol, she's tougher than you thinkkkk. uh-huh. anywaaay, i didn't plan on staying long, cause i listen to my mum! :) went there to call sayang and got some food! after that, we headed back to school and isaac and i went to the canteen :D

stayed there for a few minutes and couldn't take the noise. -.- we decided to put our bags at mr. boo's place and went for a walk :) mm-hmm, headed to japanese garden cause that's the only shade we could get from the blazing hazardous sunnnnliiight! and not to mention the heat! i was practically praying to God for some wind, and yes, it came. for a ~~short~~ while.

gahh, walked back when it was time for tuition and sat there for 3 hours and with our usual caltex-walk in between chemistry and physics!

was fun, overall.

picture? yup! only one though. it's pretty. :)

hunn's on the left and i'm on the right ♥

2009-10-02T21:15:00.001+08:00

friday ; 02 oct 09
happy birthday, tai joe vin
aka JOEJOE!

note to you ;
you're awesome and timeless
and yes, i missed all the times we had
i miss our last christmas, i miss the ~~little~~ memories together!
best wishes & you know what you mean to me.
my best friend and always will be :)

alot of ♥

p/s ; rindu youuuu!

make-up and facial class? lol!

2009-09-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

hello all! you'll never guess where i went today. hahah! make-up and facial classes. what could be worst than this? going with my mum and sister! hahahahaah! homg lol. gah, no biggie, it was fun! ohh, auntie mary and sharmaine was there too!

auntie winnie was teaching us. she represents Mary Kay! she's awesome. sheeeee has SUCH an adorable little girl. her name's lydia. :)

ahh, i've nothing much to say. let the pictures speak! :D
captions, baby! ;)

facial! haha, that thing was greeeeeen!

nials. mine's turqoise! ;) the hot pink is thana's!

that's sharmaine lol. putting on make-up for thana!

if you're wondering, YES she is ~~damn~~ good at it :)

and now, auntie mary hah ;)

camwhored a ~~little~~! ahahaha! weeeeeeeee!

this is little lydia! :D

told you ;D she's cute! and believe it or not, this amazing 4 year-old can operate an iPhone all by her own without me teaching her! haha! <3

p/s : i cut my hair again! :)

it's NOT okay!

2009-09-26T13:11:00.000+08:00

:( nononoooo~ why am i not busting my ass studying like everyone else?! muha must be gluing her eyeballs to sejarah books, aud must be memorizing those stupid physics laws and amber must be trying out all those examples from that thick thick chemistry book.

and and, here i am! blogging my freedom away :( i'm so useless. grrr. all i can think about is fun. i suckkk. aaah! *stabs self* somebody help meeee... should i go to the library instead of aud's house for swimming tomorrow?! or or... what? :( tell meeee!

oh god, i'm completely hopeless now, i know. i just know it! i'm gonna call muha to check on her. NOW! ......okay. just got off the phone with her. goodness me, she said "i'm gonna bathe first, then imma go study". great. :/ should i do the same? tomorrow's plan is canceled! ughh.

amber can't make it. and aud can't make it to gurney. so i guess swimming it is. muha and i are going to the library to study. i made her follow me! cause i can't study at home. maybe if i go over to the library it'll work. maybe. please, oh please work!

lateeysss~

2009-09-26T00:57:00.000+08:00

woooh, stayed up this late to chat with my hunn but he's gotta goooo~ *pouts* oh well, he's got a headache anyway. more rest, less chantri! :D

i'm bored... AS ~~HELL~~. oh well, bear with my nonsense.
i just realised how i miss my seremban friends oh so muchhh!

loads of emmm! kerrie, kim, dee, jess, lisa, sum, joeeeeeeee, weee! ALL!
i wonder when am i ever going back :/
xmas xmas xmassss! penang or seremban? :D

ahh, chatting with a new friend. wouldn't want him to think i'm horrible so i better pay attention! byeeeee!

weee!

2009-09-24T18:32:00.001+08:00

random post!

i'm bored. and hungry. very hungry. have to go offline soooon! since everyone's coming home in a few minutes. boohoo. :/ anyway, had a little video call with yang just now. :) fun! loves that boy.

Queens & dinner !

2009-09-24T17:31:00.000+08:00

HELLO! :D yup yup, i'm back with more nonsense!

just remembered that i promised to blog about the night
with my two darlings ; kerrie & isaac

anyway, it was a tuesday! right after i reached, i got nagged by my parents at home so yeah, decided to meet kerrie earlier than planned! she picked me up and we headed to QB. gosh, i am horrible at directions. :(

atleast we didn't get lost or anything. heh. after reaching, i was starving. headed to Swensens for some food and drinks. I didn't get my favourite drink for some stupid soda machine issue they had in Swensens. GRRR. blahh, after Swensens, headed for some ice-cream at Baskin Robbins for my favourite ; pralines n' cream!

ahh, after that, we headed to e-Gate to meet up with yang. it was awkward for a lil. then i bugged isaac to start conversations with kerrie. heh. it went well, i suppose. right, kerrie? isaac? heeeeh! ;)

ahh, got some pictures. :) from kerrie. haven't gotten any from yang yet!
enjoy ;)

only these two so far. :)
love them both, forever!

p/s : you're not my happy ending, you're my happily ever after, baby.

late night blabbers :)

2009-09-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

aaaah. it's late. yet again i still wish he would accompany me. but heh, i'm too pampered by him anyways. :) he needs a good night sleep without my annoyance for once. :)

i'm feeling bored. just had a donut! yuuummy! ah, i feel like drinking smth cold from Swensens. boohoo. guess what color are my nails? RED! ;) rawrr!

anyway anyway, i can't wait for tuition on friday! wheeepieeeeeeeee!

okay, out of nonsense, will be back with more!
signed out w/ love.

p/s : hope that Sunday plans works out!

raya 09!

2009-09-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

HELLOOO, readers. do i even have readers? heh. nevermind. anyway hello. i've been away for like 5 days! my plurk karma almost gave me a heart attack! it went down... alot. :(

anyway, my family and i went over to kelantan for the holidays. ugh, that wasn't anything ~~YET~~. it was a 21 hour drive, believe it or not! the drive was from penang - seremban - kelantan. if you know the map well, you'd know how mad long was that friggin journey.

hmm...i can't upload ALL the pictures i took, only a few cause blogger.com have been driving me nuts since this morning!

ahh, basically, we went over and went for a concert & loy krathong at terengganu. that was the highlight of the entire trip. homg, it was loads of fun! though the three hour journey killed my ass a ~~lil~~. heh! anyways, let the pictures to the talking!

captions, here i come! rawr!

on the way, windy! wooosh!

when we got lost, on the way. YES, i was bored. ;)

when boredom sets in -.-that's my sister! haha!

found the place in the end. it's pretty! by the lake :)

see? :) told you it was pretty.

just occured to us that we were over early! hahaah!

so we headed to the beach to waste some time :D yay!
camwhored to the max while we were there with thana & aya.

naked baby! :O

FEET! haha! ;)

thana babi ;P

meeeee! i like this picca. :)

vain monkey!

theeeee end! :D ahh, had a aweeesome time there. knom jean's the BEST! woooweeeeeeeeeeee!

stay tuned @ e-gate woth kerrie & sayang!

back home!

2009-09-18T19:56:00.000+08:00

gahh, i'm back home from tuition! :) just got a call from yang. homg, i hate chemistry. so so so bloody much. I SUCK! it's too tough. :( am i the only oneeee? am i? grrr, feel like giving up before i lose it. -.- i have to get a grip man.

anyway, i'll be leaving for KL at 12am later. aww, i'm gonna miss yang. and everyone else. grrr, last minute nonsense are so annoying, really. kerrie's gonna kill me! :( i haven't told her anything yet. hopefully, she doesn't read this before i tell her the bad news.

he's in church now i suppose. hmm, hope that boy gets home in time so we can say goodbye!
anyway, just gonna be a short entry. gotta have dinner soon. byee!

pictures!

2009-09-18T02:31:00.000+08:00

i got the photos from Wednesday's study thingie at my place. :)
hmm, his phone doesnt exactly has the best quality of photos but oh well. it's nice anyways.

not ready? hehe. it's cute. :P

bad hair day! OH NO!

hmmm :(

2009-09-18T00:37:00.000+08:00

it's so late! :/ why am i still awake?
don't care lah!

i've decided! that i will not be handing in my moral and sivics filio before the exams. no way! uh-uh. i am already lack of time to study itself and she wants me to hand it in before the exams?! hmph. no! don't care what that lady says, im not gonna do it!

it's either i flunk and drop class or finish the folios. a wise person would think like me! yes, i said wise. :P
laugh all you want! rawrr!

where is he...? gosh. he was supposed to call me. :( and he hasn't. i think he forgot about me. you forgot about me! :(
aishh... i'll just continue bugging Mel then. :/

p/s : love you, Mel. whatever it is, cheer up alright! heh. :) *huggles*

holiday! :D

2009-09-17T20:16:00.001+08:00

omg, I jus squashed a bug before I typed this entry. ew eww. ANYWAY, it's rayaaaa! haha, not that i'm happy or anything because i don't celebrate and i don't get duit raya buuuuuuut HOLIDAYS! *do the lala's boom boom dance* haha! aud's favourite? :D dangerous to kids, btw. no wonder kids these days are always high! lol.

hmm, well Selamat Hari Raya to all the Islams out thereeee!

this one week holiday will be not fun cause everytime i think about fun, it makes me feel so so guilty :( scared lah. finals are so so close. if i drop class, i'll never forgive myself. never ever ever ever ever!

p/s : so you finally left.

pretty cool how my premonitions are so right sometimes.

it's freaky! and it's funny.

you finally realised how CGL's so not your place.

so, hmm, enjoy while you still can, sweetheart.

♥

study group? :)

2009-09-16T19:47:00.000+08:00

it's dinner time! just sent yang home. bet he was hungry. heee.

anyway, we had a "study group" just now. with BerBer and Muha and sayang! i wouldn't say it wasn't productive at all, it WAS! i did some addmaths. although some of the questions were just grrr-ing me to death. after Muha and Ber left, i was stuck at this division-differentiation question with him -.- whatever you name that dumb question. ishh!

anyway, i wished he could've stayed longer though. and Muha and Ber too! you guys ditched me so early, boohoo!

ahh, pictures comin up, soon!

note to someone ; you better send me those pictures we took. :) kay!

i've got school tomorrow! i'm feeling all oh-so-lazy right now. :( or maybe not... i have chemistry, physics and biology all in ONE day! craziness. *pouts* i don't wanna go! noooo~ *squeals* maybe i'll act all sick tomorrow. heeeh. it won't work though. not because it's too stupid to fall for, but because the trick's getting a little old. XD.

i won't be going to school & tuition on Friday! - which also means i don't get to see silly :( i'm not even sure if there's gonna be any school on Friday or not. let's hope so. so we all don't have to go through all the trouble replacing that holiday!

ahh, i'll stop now.

p/s : you know you're forgiven. ily. :) always & forever!

bow chicka wow wow! ;)

2009-09-15T17:58:00.000+08:00

hello, everyone it's raining. :) oh wait, it's not. heheee. it's dark...! hmm, i feel like hopping into bed. but i cant! cause! i have friggin tuition later. BOOOO! but but but... look on the brighter side. i get to go for eduexcel after this one. with sayang! and muha & audrey.

i'm on the phone with him. tsk tsk tsk, he keeps burping. eew. :P
he hasn't cut his hair yet! yay! holidays are coming. so why cut now? right? hehe.

OH YEAH! friends are coming over tomorrow to study. yes, i mean it, to study! addmath, in fact. *wink* oh no, this means i have to bust my bum into cleaning the house tonight. and my roooom! oh no. :( oh well, lets see who's coming over. muha, amber, sayang and shaun! maybeeee... :)

hmmm, what else? i'm such an awesome blogger. whee! no, maybe not. i'm not perasan! no no no!
okay, it ends here this time. :) lazy de. toodleesss~

random!

2009-09-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

yaww! heh. i'm back. :D well, not exactly. just randomly posting something for fun. I CANT WAIT FOR AAR'S CONCERT! wheeeeee~ audrey & ting, it's gonna be so fun! and sum too! ;D it HAS to be fun. my sister's going tooooo!

ughh, my brother's bugging me with his restaurant city in facebook. tsk tsk. it hasn't even LOADED! homg, he just farted. and said "i'm angry" *farts*. HAHA, donkey asswipe. so gross! eek!

have i ever mentioned how much i HATE biology? HAVE I?! i suck at it. :( muhanniz HAS to come over on wednesday to teach me. you have to, muhaaaa! pretty pleasee, kayy? *hugs*

i'll just stop here! gotta call aud! :D bye all!

2009-09-13T21:49:00.001+08:00

i'm so useless.

damn it!

one of my entry frenzy~

2009-09-13T16:21:00.000+08:00

those regular readers should know how i have my sudden blogging frenzies. well, i'm having it right now. screw the whole "i'm going to study after this last post" thing. hmph. i can't stand it!

he's in the libraryyy~ studying....... when i'm here, doing nuts. i feel horrible about myself now. he better come back and teach me soon! i don't care i don't careee!

i forgot, i bought the recess revolution shirt form Claudia! haha, and i owe Vill RM5. oops. heh, i'll return then to you on mondaaay! i feel like a sad person now. i'm bored, jobless, and sick of the computer. i think i'm gonna start rolling around the house for fun. -.- what joy.

my parents never wanna tell me the holiday plans cause they know i'll make my own time for hangouts and try to squeeze them in between their plans. so what? i wanna have fun on myyy holidays too! i won't say i DESERVE them but heeeey, i want it too. :(

so far, the plans my parents made are :

go to KL to pick Thana
go to Kelantan for that Knom Jean concert
come back

which means I might have plenty of time. pluuus, my sister and i planned to head to the beach to take some pictures. :) anybody wanna come along? i'm sure isaac's happy about it. he's been wanting to go since forever!

ishh, i have to watch The Ugly Truth soon. i HAVE to! or i'll die...! i really will! *pouts* and and, i don't think it can wait till finals are overrrr... the cinema will be showered with people. and i'm always the unlucky one. always.

okay, i'll just stop my nonsense here.

untill i'm back with more, BYEEE!
♥ i miss you, yang.

mr fuzzy wuzzy ; stress free!

2009-09-13T15:59:00.000+08:00

say hello to my new frieeendddd! :D it's yellow! ahahaah!
i'm freegin bored, so BLAHH, bear with my lameness for a little while, okay? ;P

i can't study, i don't know why. mr fuzzy's not helping me either. :( boohoo. and blogspot's annoying meeee! GRRrawrrr!

MR FUZZY WUZZY!

p/s : anybody has the pictures of Paradise band?

can I have em, pleasee?

i'll credit no worries. :)

i need help.

2009-09-13T14:04:00.000+08:00

"STUDY, chantri, STUDY!"

that's been in my head all morning. but i can't seem to flip a page of my book, WHY?! grrr. i'm so impatient. i suck at memorizing. i need help. maybe therapy would be good. or maybe just a TUTOR! please? gosh, who? who's free enough to even bother teaching me? let alone stand my dumbness.

somebody teach me addmaths. SERIOUSLY, i need this. i really do... i'll do what i can do, read up some biology and history. in fact, i'll do it right after i'm done with this stupid entry.

why am i so difficult?! whyy... i'm so stubborn. hard-headed me. stab me already! i wish my sister was here to teach me or smth :( but she's all the way in KL. i can't even think of a nice hang-out without having it ruined by my ugly thoughts of failing addmaths agaainnnn.

i can't fail. I CAN'T. it'll be such a nightmare. i can't drop calss. i'll never forgive myself if i drop class. why am i having troubles just MAINTAINING itself? am i the only oneeee? i'm scared, honestly honestly scared.

andd anddd.... i miss himm. :(

LATE NIGHT T.T

2009-09-12T01:23:00.000+08:00

it's so so late... and I am STARVING. no, really. i'm starving. IM SO HUNGRY! i wish i lived between McD and his home. :) that'll be so cool. and i'll be an obese. and he's gonna dump me then! heh! will he..? will you?! :P i need to eat, nowww~ or or... i'm gonna shrivle up and dieeee of hunger.

...or maybe not. heh.

see the entry before this oneee? he wrote it. :) he's adorableeee. to me. hmph!
it's 1.30AM now. grrr.

what should I do? i need a new webcam. seriously. then I can play simon says more often. without cheating XD. oh well, i'm not doing much besides chatting with kerrie ; my lamest friend ever. and she just happened to crack one of her lame jokes. she said "what to do what to do go to pudu and sapudu" AHAHAHA, i dont know but i just think it's funny in a lame way. XD. i'm also chatting with sayang! :) hes gonna cut his hair soon and i'm gonna miss it loads! anddd, chatting with Chan Beng Hock. it's been a long long time and all o.O

okay, I better stop now before I kill myself out of boredom. O.O"

p/s : I had fun just now at Hunza with him for Paradise band concert thing. :)
pp/s : i love you too!
ppp/s : kerrie ko mae quin, rindu youuuu!
pppp/s : i'm such a cracko! :(

HeLLoO Everyone!!

2009-09-12T00:18:00.000+08:00

She Forced me to post an entry..
And here it goes..
My mind is currently blank..
Okay.. think, think... Brainpower gogo!!

Today, went to Boo's tuition which was really fun! =)
and it is ALWAYS fun to be in Boo's tuition. Except for the wednesday class..
Sad to say she was not there.. All because of me!! My fault.. Heh!

After that i went to the Paradise Band concert at Hunza..
She was there to! =D
Walked all the way from McD..
Sorry for being late hunn.. Kept you waiting..
Gave her a hug and we went in the church..
Sweat dripping and dripping..
The concert went on.. Kinda enjoyed it.
'Bzzt!' i accidentally zapped her..
And this time it hurt her! heheee =P
Around 9:50, the concert's over.
Went to e-mart and she got something to fill her empty stomach..
And we both went home...

Now, i'm chatting with her online lo.. MSN and Plurk! =D
Eh, Chantri ah.. When can you get yourself a webcam?? Hmm??
You can see me but i can't see you!! =(

Oh well, that's all la..
Don't wanna write anymore!!
I'm at writing.. Don't wanna crap and ruin her blog page.
It'll end here.. Done! Yay!

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♥ love you la! =P

RUK SUK KUM! ♥

2009-08-27T13:52:00.000+08:00

blop jai dtua eng waa mai ben rai mai ben a-rai
I told myself that everything was ok, I was ok.

kom jai ao wai mai hai nam dtaa mun lai oork maa
I hid my feelings, not letting my tears flow.

kae ter ja bai kae ter dtong gaan kor lerk laa
You wanted to go, you wanted to end our relationship.

glaeng yim oork maa glaeng tam waa chun mai ben a-rai
I forced a smile to show you that I was ok.

dai piang yeun mong ter gup kao tee gam lung ja jaak chun bai
All I could do is stand and look at you and him as you were about to leave me.

mai mee kum poot jaa dai dai mai mee het pon
Without any words to give me a reason why.

ter dern jaak gun bai chaa chaa mai mee mae dtae kum rum laa
You walked away without even saying goodbye

mai mee kum poot jaa ler-ee suk kum
No words were spoken at all.

kae ter bork waa ruk suk kum ja dai mai
Couldn't you have said you loved me?

reu chuay poot a-rai tee por ja tam hai roo seuk dee
Or said anything that would have made me feel better?

reu ter poot maa ler-ee waa mai ruk waa rum kaan gor yung dee
Or if you said you didn't love me and you were annoyed, it would be better.

dee gwaa cher-ee bai yaang nee laew gor ting bai
Better than leaving me and saying nothing.

gup wun we-laa tee mee hai ter tung duang jai
All the time we had I gave you my heart.

mot laew chai mai kae piang we-laa kae siao naa-tee
But that time had ended, hasn't it? There's only time to realize the time that has past.

jop kwarm song jam lop gaan gra tam fung jai dee dee
The memories have ended and begun to slowly fade similar to the time I knew your feelings well.
jaak bai wun nee toi kum dee dee mai mee suk kum
From this day on, there is nothing left for you to say.

dai piang yeun mong ter gup kao tee gam lung ja jaak chun bai
All I could do is stand and look at you and him as you were about to leave me.

mai mee kum poot jaa dai dai mai mee het pon
Without any words to give me a reason why.

ter dern jaak gun bai chaa chaa mai mee mae dtae kum rum laa
You walked away without even saying goodbye

mai mee kum poot jaa ler-ee suk kum
No words were spoken at all.

kae ter bork waa ruk suk kum ja dai mai
Couldn't you have said you loved me?

reu chuay poot a-rai tee por ja tam hai roo seuk dee
Or said anything that would have made me feel better?

reu ter poot maa ler-ee waa mai ruk waa rum kaan gor yung dee
Or if you said you didn't love me and you were annoyed, it would be better.

dee gwaa cher-ee bai yaang nee laew gor ting bai
Better than leaving me and saying nothing.

kae ter bork waa ruk suk kum ja dai mai
Couldn't you have said you loved me?

reu chuay poot a-rai tee por ja tam hai roo seuk dee
Or said anything that would have made me feel better?

reu ter poot maa ler-ee waa mai ruk waa rum kaan gor yung dee
Or if you said you didn't love me and you were annoyed, it would be better.

dee gwaa cher-ee bai yaang nee laew gor ting bai
Better than leaving me and saying nothing.

reu ter poot maa ler-ee waa mai ruk ter ruam kaan chun dtem tee
Or if you said you didnt love me, you were completely annoyed with me.

dee gwaa cher-ee bai yaang nee hai mun kaang kaa
It would be better than to say nothing and let things slowly deteriorate.

2009-08-26T13:21:00.000+08:00

my precious love.

On the day I couldn’t see
my heart I felt insecure
The meaning of loving somebody
it’s something I decide myself
truth can be found in everything

I promise you, I won’t wander off anymore
I’ll be strong...
and prove myself to you
I won’t run away, I’ll turn around to face you
so I can see how you feel, to heart

I will believe
so the two of us can be together in love
In order for my wish to reach the sky
I will look for you, and pray for the two of us
A pair of thoughts, now they can come
together and from a wholeYour precious love
When pain or bitterness pulls us
apart, we can hold each other
We’re no longer alone,
because everything is answered by true love

I will believe
so the two of us can be together in love
I’ll hold your hand forever, don’t let
go, let’s make a promise, the two of us
A pair of thoughts, now they can come
together and from a whole
Just the two of us

I believe that right now we can
strengthen this young and complacent love
There can be truth
A new beginning
I want to be one with you

I will believe
that we can come together
right now, right here, and love each other
So in order to light your light fill me
I hug you tightly

scares me most

2009-08-19T01:56:00.000+08:00

GENERALLY

You know that ONE thing that bugs me all the friggin time, again and again is this BAD VIBE I get around people. Around people itself scares me, imagine getting bad vibes around my own close friends.

It's such a horrible feeling. It's like TORTURE!
Another horrible feeling is when you realise somebody actually hates you when all this while you think they never had anything against you. Ahh, not having anything against me is still, acceptable... but HATRED? It's painful. Amazing how it cuts so deep. Ishh.

I'm emotionally depressed lol.

FINALLY! taaadaaa

2009-08-19T00:14:00.001+08:00

Exam ended! FINALLY! Gahh, feels great to be able to come online again! Isaac's jealous. Muahahhaa! He's on the phone line right now! Poor him, still studying... He thinks I'm mean, but I'm not! Really! Hmph. I feel like eating a whole lot bunch of apples right now. I'm having my braces appointent soon! And I thinkkk I'm gonna get it green and pink this time.

Yeaaay! We're heading to McDonald's tomorrow! Can't wait. BUUUURGEEER! Wheeeeee! More fats! Ahahaha! I'm gonna get MILKSHAKE AGAIN! Grandma' food! Ahaha, Grandma aka Amber! Audrey prefers G-mama. XD. Funny shit. :P

I'm just posting an update for SOMEBODY's sake. You know who you areee! :P

wheeeee~

2009-08-09T08:38:00.000+08:00

That's it! I'm not gonna let this crap bother me anymore. HMPFF. I'm gonna wake up every morning, smiling to myself and tell myself how great the day's gonna be! :) It was a mistake. People make mistakes. :D I know some mistakes might not be as horrible as the one I've made but oh well, somebody's gotta do it. :P

My eye still hasn't heal yet. :( this is bad. lol, I'mma go to the clinic on Monday when mum comes back.

It's another week left to the next monthly test! GAH, I'm so, so not prepared. I need help for Chemistry and Addmaths. Anybody? ANYBODY AT ALL? Pleaseeeee.

I'm gonna end this entry now. Cause I've got nothing better to say than EAT MORE MAGEE MEEEEE! :D They're yummy. Very yummyyy~ xP

Oh and btw, I was reading Melanie P's blog the other day and came across these words, it's interesting really. :) I liked it alot. :D

"Faith is not a feeling. Faith is believing without seeing."

-Nick Vujicic

*credits to Melanie P'ng*